if you haven't already noticed...

a lot of my references are musical. well, i think that i pretty much enjoy music. and it is a pretty huge part of me.

wow, i am really spacey this week...

so this weekend...
was really interesting.

my brother came into town and we went to the bocktoberfest in shiner, which was hilarious. props to audioslave though. awesome performance. i loved it. :)

then, my brother and i went out with my friend and her brother. that was fun too. well... yeah but i decided something this weekend.

im done being bummed. im sick of it. im listening to good music, i have a couple healthy crushes, and i need to find something to do with my time. im thinking about working with a high school ministry.

this is one thing that really puzzles me. how, when i am so defensive of my own beliefs (or lack of them)do i keep going back to the things that i have problems with? is it because they challenge me? do i find some sort of sick pleasure out of it? probably not. i think the main thing is that i desperately want to figure things out for myself and the way for me to do that is to help others figure it out for themselves... if that makes any sense

so yeah, i think that is what im going to do.