If I could I would...

"Carry on you say
Bring the best of today
All I see is struggling on the way

Maybe when the sun crashes through the gray
I can find the strength to make it through the day
Through the day

What happens when all your dreams are lying on the ground
Do you pick up the pieces all around"

-Lifehouse "Chapter One"


It's amazing how much music can touch your soul and become such a part of you. I love music. Especially when I'm in a bad mood. Well I'm not really in a bad mood I guess. I am just bummed. There really is no other way to describe it. Long gone are the days of the happy posts. Wait, this is my uncensored journal so there are no happy posts. Well back to the topic of music. I love to listen to music when I need a hug. Music forces me to feel what I'm going through. It makes me think about what I refuse to think about. It makes me remember that what I really want to do is write. I want the world to hear everything I have to say. I want to make myself heard. I guess that's why I write on the internet. Even though I'm writing to myself, someone else is out there. There are some people who care. In a way, it's my lifeline. And I guess that somehow, I am hoping in vain that everything I write will be published. Oh stupid vain thoughts. I'm kidding myself about being any good. Oh well.