"Is there anything better than to be longing for something when you know it is within reach?" Greta Garbo

I am so confused.

But for once, it is a good thing. I am not going to overthink this. Erin is my name and relaxation is my game. haha. right.

what do you do when........

when you destroyed something and may have the opportunity to do it again? you wouldn't destroy it would you? you'd want to save it. its something that you regretted breaking up and you didn't realize you'd done it till it was too late.

what do you do then?

and what if you don't know if the opportunity is there? should you assume its not? should you go for it, just reach in and grab it? or should you pine away for it, waiting for the opportunity to present itself?

if there's one thing i've learned it's that you can't live by two conflicting ideas. in the end you end up confused and defeated. but how do you choose which idea to live by? Carpe Diem or Timing Is Everything? is there a happy medium? i don't think so. I've spent my entire life looking for it and have proven myself to be nothing more than a horse's ass.

random, i know.

where does greta garbo come in?

i want to believe that this opportunity is within reach. but i have no way of knowing for sure. it's hard for me to trust my instincts after being wrong so many times.

i know what i want to do but the only question is if i can. my ability isn't a question of outside forces, but if i can bring myself to do it.

choices choices.